as most of you know, im very much in love with my boyfriend. but i keep doubting myself in the back of my head. somehow i think we will be together forever but also somehow i believe a simple thing can depart us. it brings instant depression. today i was with him and sometimes i wasnt happy. but it always got better. im never sad or mad or lonely because of him. always happy. so what is it? why do sometimes i feel this way? i dont want to believe people when they say its young love, i will never understand. i know it’s real love. im keeping my love for him. but….but…HOW DO I KNOW?
the only way to find out is by keeping it until something stops it from going any longer. i just hope that’s not anytime soon. god i love him. i could marry him now. it wouldnt be the first time he asked me too. the only thing stopping us is money. cuz neither of us is rich. well, i might be rich before he is because he doesnt let me pay for anything. lol. such a true gentleman. well, only to me of course :D
i should write a book about this.